Post by Hannah on Mar 6, 2013 3:00:17 GMT -5
What...the...flying...fuck!!!
So I thought my move that I had made last round was a move that would put me in a good position in the game. It would give me leeway with the former Cascade members, it would have the two people left from Napa have to come to me for votes, it would set me up going into the merge with a solid alliance, all of this...wrong.
First off Beau is PISSED! I struggled with telling him about my plan or going through with it alone, and going through with it alone...didn't help my cause at all. He feels alone and isolated. He feels like he cannot trust anyone, and he was just starting to go out on a whim for me. It's true, in a way I did screw him, he stuck his neck out for me, the least i could have done was stick mine out for him, and tell him the plan, but I failed to do so. I can't take it back, but I have to rebuild that bridge, since he basically told me he thinks I am playing an unstable game, and he fears being allies with me for the longhaul. Oy Vey.
Then you have Quincy, who put on this fake face, saying everything was good, he wanted to work together, when in reality he is going to people, working hard, wanting the former Cascade members (who I just helped out) to get me out of the game. Add on top of that that my tribe just lost immunity, things are not going well for me...at all.
After talking to Beau, from who I learned that Quincy was sincerely upset with me and wanted nothing to do with me, and Jessica who I thought was one of my closest allies, but apparently not, was going around calling me a threat, wanting me out of the game, I head to put on my thinking cap. How can someone, like me, who just managed to burn bridges with almost everyone find a footing in this game. So I confronted Quincy, and I told him everything. Ya I may have stretched the truth a bit about how Jessica is working with the entire other tribe (more like I am working with the entire other tribe, but the less he knows the better), but I did tell him about my true power, alliances I have made with the other tribe, etc, etc. I needed to gain the trust of someone I don't trust myself, and I don't fully know if I achieved that or not.
A single step...
That's all I need, a single step in the right direction, and I think my move with Quincy was that step. What I figured out about Jessica was the most shocking, but I find it hard to disbelieve, so in that respect, I find it to be true. Jessica basically after Judgement went and worked on Quincy, trying to tell him I am a threat, that I am someone who has ties to the other tribe, and things of this sort. I mean its all valid and true, BUT, if she was a true ally of mine, she wouldn't throw me under the bus to save herself, and that is what scares me.
At this point I have a few options. I can trust Cascade, and split the vote between Quincy and Beau, forcing at best, a 2-2-2 tie. Then in the revote it would be 3-1 against whoever we all wanted to vote out. This vote is risky if the three Cascades lie to me and vote another way. Another prospect with this vote is the 3-2-1 scenario. Allow the Cascades to split their votes, while the three Napa vote together. The tough thing about this is, what if Beau and Quincy lie to me, vote me and force a 2-2-1-1 tie vote? Then I would be voted out regardless of what happened, and that would not be a good thing, that is the thing that scares me the most with going with Quincy and Beau.
I have more decisions to make, because if I make the wrong one, it could be me possibly getting voted out. It truly is a gut wrenching position to be completely honest. Do I try to earn my wings back, and go back to Napa, being a double crosser, or do I keep my pitchfork and stay with Cascade. I have until tomorrow to cast my vote, and I think it will take me until then to figure out wholeheartedly what I will do. I just hope whatever I do do is the right choice.
In most situations, the devil's in the details, in this situation, its in who you trust, because if you trust the wrong person, you are going to be kissing your game goodbye.
So I thought my move that I had made last round was a move that would put me in a good position in the game. It would give me leeway with the former Cascade members, it would have the two people left from Napa have to come to me for votes, it would set me up going into the merge with a solid alliance, all of this...wrong.
First off Beau is PISSED! I struggled with telling him about my plan or going through with it alone, and going through with it alone...didn't help my cause at all. He feels alone and isolated. He feels like he cannot trust anyone, and he was just starting to go out on a whim for me. It's true, in a way I did screw him, he stuck his neck out for me, the least i could have done was stick mine out for him, and tell him the plan, but I failed to do so. I can't take it back, but I have to rebuild that bridge, since he basically told me he thinks I am playing an unstable game, and he fears being allies with me for the longhaul. Oy Vey.
Then you have Quincy, who put on this fake face, saying everything was good, he wanted to work together, when in reality he is going to people, working hard, wanting the former Cascade members (who I just helped out) to get me out of the game. Add on top of that that my tribe just lost immunity, things are not going well for me...at all.
After talking to Beau, from who I learned that Quincy was sincerely upset with me and wanted nothing to do with me, and Jessica who I thought was one of my closest allies, but apparently not, was going around calling me a threat, wanting me out of the game, I head to put on my thinking cap. How can someone, like me, who just managed to burn bridges with almost everyone find a footing in this game. So I confronted Quincy, and I told him everything. Ya I may have stretched the truth a bit about how Jessica is working with the entire other tribe (more like I am working with the entire other tribe, but the less he knows the better), but I did tell him about my true power, alliances I have made with the other tribe, etc, etc. I needed to gain the trust of someone I don't trust myself, and I don't fully know if I achieved that or not.
A single step...
That's all I need, a single step in the right direction, and I think my move with Quincy was that step. What I figured out about Jessica was the most shocking, but I find it hard to disbelieve, so in that respect, I find it to be true. Jessica basically after Judgement went and worked on Quincy, trying to tell him I am a threat, that I am someone who has ties to the other tribe, and things of this sort. I mean its all valid and true, BUT, if she was a true ally of mine, she wouldn't throw me under the bus to save herself, and that is what scares me.
At this point I have a few options. I can trust Cascade, and split the vote between Quincy and Beau, forcing at best, a 2-2-2 tie. Then in the revote it would be 3-1 against whoever we all wanted to vote out. This vote is risky if the three Cascades lie to me and vote another way. Another prospect with this vote is the 3-2-1 scenario. Allow the Cascades to split their votes, while the three Napa vote together. The tough thing about this is, what if Beau and Quincy lie to me, vote me and force a 2-2-1-1 tie vote? Then I would be voted out regardless of what happened, and that would not be a good thing, that is the thing that scares me the most with going with Quincy and Beau.
I have more decisions to make, because if I make the wrong one, it could be me possibly getting voted out. It truly is a gut wrenching position to be completely honest. Do I try to earn my wings back, and go back to Napa, being a double crosser, or do I keep my pitchfork and stay with Cascade. I have until tomorrow to cast my vote, and I think it will take me until then to figure out wholeheartedly what I will do. I just hope whatever I do do is the right choice.
In most situations, the devil's in the details, in this situation, its in who you trust, because if you trust the wrong person, you are going to be kissing your game goodbye.