Confessionals

[stephenie]

Well I'm here! I'm a little late but I feel like I kind of came in and tried to speak with people right away. Overall, I like everyone I've spoken to. No one is really weird or annoying yet. I knew that the first IC was very, very important to show up to. It kind of is telling to how the game will shape up. People will know if you really care about this game. Now there is a negative cogitation that stands over Ian, Adam, Vincent and Jessica's heads. They are deemed as "weak" right now. If any of then don't show up again, then it's basically a death wish and they're out.

I don't see people voting out the people who participate. I really don't know why I get so paranoid but even though I competed, I truly feel uneasy about the vote. I think that could be a downfall for me. I am always so paranoid so I really wanna try to find comfort-ability. I guess we'll see after this vote. I can at least say I did my part in the challenge.

[stephenie]

So the challenge results went up and Im very upset/disappointed. I really did not expect to be in very last place. I am not the most social person but I have talked with a lot of people and have been nice to them. Maybe my problem is that I didn't come right out the gates and started forming alliances. I wanted to build relationships and make friends first. Test the waters a little. Now it has hurt me, I don't have any alliances and now I'm feeling like I'm on the chopping block.

Even though it could have been just 2 people technically. I don't know what more I can give. I did the first Immunity and did my part. I have been active so I feel like that's more than Vincent, Ian and Jessica. Also, I feel like Misty just doesn't like me. So right now my vote is between her, Ian and Vincent. I guess I need to talk to some people to get an idea. It just sucks that I'm last because it's SO much easier to just say, let's vote Steph!

If I go, which I have a strong feeling it will happen. I go to Redemption but I swear, I will get back and I will burn all of them.

[Host]

Round 2
Hey Stephenie! Got a few questions for you.

1. Who do you trust the most?
2. Who do you consider your other "core allies"?
3. How are the tribe dynamics stratified?
4. Who do you want to see gone the most?

[stephenie]

It's really weird but I trust Perry the most. I just think after his efforts in the first Immunity, I really like him. He also is the one person that has stuck his arm out for me to stay and is helping me at this very moment turn this whole game around.

I never made an alliances. I still have no solid alliances with anyone but I guess my core "allies" are Perry, Freddie, Ian and Vincent because they are giving me a chance to stay here.

I think that It's mixed. I think Vincent/Ian are close, Perry/Freddie are close. Then the 4 girls are mixed or something, I'm not sure.


I want Misty out. I just don't like the bitch. She's weird.

[stephenie]

I did it!! I survived the vote against all odds. I'm ecstatic and surprised. To further explain...I came home last night from work and I knew I was going. I just had that feeling along with placing in last for the tribe. So I was like, well let's see what I can do. I entered the tribe chat and Perry, Karla and Ian were there. I hadn't spoken to Ian before so I was a little nervous but I laid out my plea to him, Karla and Perry.

I basically stated how I don't cause trouble, I'm active, I did the challenges and I'm nice to everyone. As opposed to Misty who a lot of people don't like or didn't even talk to. So I spoke with Perry more so and he said my best bet would be to try to get Misty out. Which was one of my two original choices anyway. So I started to make my move on everyone for Misty. Perry said he'd work on Freddie and Ian became convinced after I smoozed him over. He said he would try to get Vincent.

I sent messages to Freddie and Vincent pleading my case and trying to smooze them over as well. It worked, they both thought it was ludacris that I was even brought up in the first place. So then soon joined on board, I also worked on Yvette hard. Karla never once spoke back to me and she was in the chat a lot with Misty so I believe Karla was the other person who voted for me. The votes came back 7-2, I was surprised but super happy!

Throughout this though, I haven't made a solid alliance with any of these people. I hope this started a foundation for an alliance between Me, Perry, Freddie, Vincent and Ian. I think we could do really with and probably Yvette would string along. Regardless of anything, my next vote will be for Karla.

I really do feel like I owe Perry though. If he wasn't for him starting to turn the wheels, I don't think I could have put this into motion. I genuinely feel like I need to pay him back somehow in this game even if it means to end my own game. I could be out of this game right now. But I'm not!

[stephenie]

I'm kind of like frustrated I guess you could say. When I enter the chat and Karla or Jessica is there, they don't talk to me. They don't answer my private messages. They have something against me. Maybe cause I took out one of their little friends? But this is a social game, if they try to talk to me it would seriously help them. I'm not trying to be cocky but I am in a power position. If we lose, Perry and I will pretty much decide who's leaving and it looks like it's Karla for now.

[wendy]

Wendy's Question:



In one word, describe your tribe's emotional state.

[stephenie]

I'd say my tribes emotional state would be excitement. I think everyone believes in our tribe and is doing their part to contribute around camp and challenges. Some people do more work in challenges then others but that doesn't make them "stronger". I think no one feels like they are on the "bottom" which makes it exciting. No one really knows who will go next and usually at this time on Survivor there's a switch so who knows, there's so much unexpectedness it kind of brings anticipation and excitement a long with it.

[stephenie]

I just got bamboozled by this twist. I had no clue and it was just so sudden. Like DAMN! I'm scared now. Also, it's a fucking double boot! Really? Like OMG, could it get any worse?? I just don't know how to react to this. Ian, Freddie and myself are 100% solid but god only knows what Yvette is doing. Ian says he has a good relationship with her (which I was not aware of and now is making me slightly nervous) and he thinks he can get her.

I've spent a lot of time speaking with Luca and Gloria, I like them. I can see me and Gloria forming a good bond. I am NOT a big "pagonger" I don't like to stay completely on tribal lines. Like how Survivor cliche and boring, boring, boring. If Gloria and my conversations keep going like they have today, I could easily want her in the top 4.

She did share info with me and I shared some slight ones with her. She told me their first vote was 7-3 and their second was 4-4-1 where she just barely survived. So maybe I can use her to flip over? I dont know but I hope so!

[stephenie]

This switch has given me so much new life. It's changed the entire game for me, I'm so enjoying my new tribe. I think I'm the most active of Freddie, Yvette, Ian and myself. I have bonded so much with Luca, Gloria and Tess and I know I'm safe with them. This game will be no tribal lines. No final 6 with 1 original tribe still in tact. I have no fears going to the end with Gloria or Luca. I have spoken more now with Luca then I have with Ian, Yvette, Vincent, Karla and Jessica.

If things go the way I plan them to, Wyatt will be leaving first. Yvette will fall shortly after. Then the tough part starts but I believe it'll be Tess or Ian but if we have to go twice more then it'll be both of them.

[Host]

Hey Stephenie, just a few questions for this round's judgement!

1. Who do you trust the most on your tribe? The least?
2. Who would you like to see go this round?
3. Do you think there's a chance of anyone flipping?
4. What's your strategy to get to the merge?

[stephenie]

o do you trust the most on your tribe? The least?
2. Who would you like to see go this round?
3. Do you think there's a chance of anyone flipping?
4. What's your strategy to get to the merge?


I feel like I would say I trust no one right now the most. It's a little equal right now. I've heard of a lot of deceptions going on. Freddie and Ian are not who I thought they were. I was willing to get rid of Yvette and now she's kind of one of the trustworthy ones. I have no idea who the best to confident in is. The least trustworthy for me, I'd say Ian right now. I heard he wants to get rid of Freddie which is just so out of left field.

I would like to see Ian go. I just don't talk to him much and now I just feel like he's a flip flopper.

Yes, like I said in my earlier confessionals, I don't think tribal lines totally exist. I'm willing to vote Ian out, Ian is willing to vote Freddie out so who knows what's gonna happen this vote.

I have a "do whatever it takes" strategy to get to the merge. If it means getting rid of Ian, Yvette and Freddie, then I'll do it. I mean I know their tribe is not 8 strong. I've heard of cracks and issues so I really think I can infiltrate and go deep.

[stephenie]

Wow, I think at the end of this game people will be surprised with the amount of power I had in this game. I really went from the bottom of the rung to more of the top tier.

Today was a crazy, hectic day. Gloria being stripped of Immunity and Wyatt getting. Ian wanting to flip and get rid of Freddie. Then Gloria accidentally PMing Yvette a convo I had with her and basically saying the former Cascades are unstable and will vote against each other. I then had to basically convince Yvette not to believe what Gloria said and that we needed to stick together or we'd be picked off. So I was able to band Yvette and Freddie to get rid of Gloria.

Gloria double crossed me. She made a huge mistake in the game. On top of that, she's strong, social able, likable and really smart. She's gotta go. I did have a lot of conversations with Ian about voting out Gloria and he changed his mind and went for it. I also spoke with Wyatt, Tess and Luca who all seemed to be on board with it. I know 100% Luca went with it but the other 2 I think are more 50/50.

Tomorrow morning is going to be insane.

[stephenie]

It's really sad how things turn so quick. I really thought I had a good thing going but it turns out I was damn wrong. Wow, I feel like a complete idiot. Tess, Wyatt and Ian all unnecessarily lied to me. All they had to say was, "no we aren't gonna do Gloria, sorry" and I would have said ok and I would have just let Freddie go and understood.

So I was a bit shocked to see him go. Now I just feel alone but not totally because Yvette shares my sympathy. I just don't even know where I stand. It sucks. I really tried to prove myself in the challenge and I believe that I did a majority of the thread making and I also was present for the finding of the flag. Whereas, Wyatt did not participate whatsoever at all and he has a guaranteed spot to stay.

It's just so frustrating. Like why does it have to be this way? Now, I really feel on the chopping block again. I mean, I like Yvette and Ian but if I had to vote them I'd do it because I want to stay. At the same time, there is a plan brewing that Ian is working on. He believes Wyatt does want to flip and get Gloria out.

I believe it's true because of the fact he stated to me he knows of Gloria's 4 person alliance of Her, Luca, Quincy and Nick. He told me he wanted to vote with me last round to get rid of it. But then he told Ian, he wanted to wait til Freddie was gone because he didn't feel safe if he let us 4 have a majority.

Going into the vote, I have no clue what's gonna happen..

[stephenie]

The game is afoot!

A few days ago, I had no clue what was going to go down. Then a miracle came gliding down from the heavens above. Yvette, Tess, Wyatt and myself were in a chat and we solidified a 4 person alliance. It was talked about prior to the elimination of Freddie but it didn't work. Now it was going to.

So we discussed whether to vote Ian or Gloria out. We believe Gloria is a huge threat and has alliances on the other team. Ian on the other hand, is sly, sort of inactive and quite possibly could have thrown the Immunity challenge and given Jessica our flag. In the end we decided to do Gloria.

Right before Tribal Council, I went into chat and Gloria and Luca were there both really trying to persuade me to vote Ian. I never once said I was voting him but I did talk with them and listen to them. Gloria was talking so much and sucking up to me! It was hilarious, after she was the one who basically lied/screwed me.

She kept promising me, "Oh if you vote Ian, there's a likely chance that you won't be next". How is that assuring whatsoever at all? The problem is I really do like Luca and I enjoy talking to him more then a lot of people on this tribe. So when Gloria did leave, I told him that don't be surprised if she goes.

In surprising news, he wasn't upset and he was sort of glad that she left for his own game. I even warned him she was weighing him down. Seeing Gloria leave was like the nerdy guy in the 80's romance movie getting the hot girl. It was picture perfect.

So moving along. Today, Tess revealed to me that she had an Immunity necklace from Death Valley. Um, I had NO clue about this. So the fact that she told me is actually pretty stupid in my opinion. She doesn't realize my close bond with Luca. So after this double vote, which will most likely result in Ian leaving. If we lose again, I'm gonna talk to Luca/Yvette and I'm gonna try to blindside Tess. I think she wouldnt even see it coming and that's one less idol out of the way.